The Monster (BDSM, S&M, Backpage, Escorts, Bondage, Fetish, Sex, Switzerland, Spain, Netherlands, Belgium, Canada) Nina Toubale / Nina Dellis

I see it so clearly: me crouching on the floor after a kick to the stomach. My body bruised for weeks and never fading, just more and more added to my skin. I threw up after that kick and he made me eat it. He threw my body like I weighed nothing, calling me every […]

“I can fly?! I can Fly!!” (BDSM, S&M, Backpage, Escorts, Bondage, Fetish, Sex, Switzerland, Spain, Netherlands, Belgium, Canada) Nina Toubale / Nina Dellis

“I can fly?! I can Fly!!” I love the movie Peter Pan. Not just for Tinkerbell, the Lost Boys and the song “Following the Leader”. I love the movie because they can fly. They can fly through the skies of London and not worry about it too much because as Peter says: “All you need […]

One in three. (BDSM, S&M, Backpage, Escorts, Bondage, Fetish, Sex, Switzerland, Spain, Netherlands, Belgium) Nina Toubale / Nina Dellis

Trigger Warning: Rape. Only one third of sexual assault survivors report. I was six years old the first time I was raped. SIX years old. They threatened to take my baby sister and at that age I didn’t want her to live with what happened to me. So I didn’t say anything. I kept my […]

I’ve let it go. Finally. (BDSM, S&M, Backpage, Escorts, Bondage, Fetish, Sex, Switzerland, Spain, Netherlands, Belgium) Nina Toubale / Nina Dellis

I have a whole army of demons that have controlled me and my life. Enough is enough. I don’t need to hold on anymore, I’ve held on for far too long to you I feel your grip, it’s like a vice, Crushing every dream – Breaking every promise – Hurting me even more every second […]

I like both. I want both. But I am awkward. (BDSM, S&M, Backpage, Escorts, Bondage, Fetish, Sex, Switzerland, Spain, Netherlands, Belgium, Canada) Nina Toubale / Nina Dellis

If I am ever in a situation when I get awkward, I back out. I get out and reassess the situation and go back in guns blazing. But I usually get awkward moreso around other women than men. Here’s why. There are two reasons: the women I know are beautiful, strong, smart, funny women and […]