Falling with Take Out Down the Stairs

I’m accepting I know nothing in my life. What a beautiful mess it is. I’m submitting the application to my first apartment. I’m passing out every couple hours. Bonding with my professors. Finding out my favorite ones are not going to be teaching next year. Bonding over our mutual diseases and obstacles. Hugging someone who until today was just a brilliant teacher.. Can’t keep us down for too long. We do what we have to survive.

A full bowl of cocoa puffs crashes out of my frozen spiraling arms. It’s spilling on the floor spreading in a choreographed dance to taunt my social anxiety. Is it the cocoa puffs still on the floor or me? 9:30 on a Sunday night, it’s only a couple bruises. Some how there’s put perfect clarity when you cry outside a dining hall door in a short dirty ball in your best friend’s lap. Perfect clarity as you prance until you get sun burn late in the evening.

Thinking your life is falling into place. Only to find everything going black. Everything going black. Everything going black as you fall again this time down the stairs with your Chinese food. I fail to see the clarity right now. I fail to see it. But I will. Pride is found in the small accomplishments. In scraping up what’s left of your dinner, rubbing aloe lotion on your red skin, on taking the stairs one step at a time. Life may be the largest mess of tears and spilled food but it isn’t how it looks like.

Looks are not relevant. Tell me how it feels. And boy today. Today I feel so loved. Loved by myself. Perhaps this time I won’t get off the path of finding myself. Even if it’s trying to throw me down stairs. You’re going to have to do better than that. There isn’t a weak bone left in my body. My mother really did raise a Bitch. Women are not weak. No matter the storm, I refuse to give in.


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