Slut evolution Pt. 2: Femdom days

Recalling events in September & October of 2015 that shaped my evolution from closet slut to completely shameless.

Because it was still early on in my position at the police department, they were able to let me go without a valid reason.

I was absolutely devastated! Literally slack-jawed, holding my steering wheel staring off into space, devastated. I had just rented the apartment I was living in to be closer to the P.D., completely furnished the place and now? Now, the P.D. let me go, because some uptight, prudish cunts at work were shocked at my kinks and interests. (refer back to my cl ad in my pics)

I was completely depressed. Never, had my privacy been so thoroughly violated before. And at work no less.

Once the shock wore off I calmed myself down enough to realize that I’d be okay. Took a couple of days for panic mode to demote itself to stunned amazement. Luckily I had enough savings built up to just coast for a minute.

I went back to doing some geological consulting work which was good enough to keep me preoccupied for a bit. However after leaving the museum as assistant director, being dig crew leader on fossil hunts and dinosaur digs in Wyoming and South Dakota, having an appearance on the Travel Channel, and published work, geology lost it’s luster and my passion for it fizzled.

Not long after, I somehow stumbled across a whole online community of kinky people but from the female Domme perspective.

A light bulb went on in my mind, “Well fuck. I’m a wicked bitch and hell, I even have experience Domming.”

So I put myself out there. Twitter, Facebook, CL, Fet. Collected clients. Mostly online. Several in person. Always with a bodyguard nearby. No sex. Billed at $300 an hour. I liked it for a minute. People called me goddess and the name evolved from there. It wasn’t a title I gave myself.

I was doing findom, humiliation, femdom and selling items that I once used.

People from all over the country sent me gifts and money just for being alive. But at a price. And the price became too much. My attention. Always… my attention. I was exhausted. It was good money but it drained me and I hated it.

I’m a bitch. Proud at that but this work wasn’t in my nature. I could do it but I pitied the men I worked for. I felt like more of a slave to them than they were to me.

Clearly this wasn’t working.

… to be continued

 

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