“Bad Ass” or “Brave Little One”?

When someone calls me a “bad ass” I smile and say thank you but internally, I dismiss it immediately. I don’t feel like a bad ass. I’m scar d of a million things every day. That Term is reserved for people who give no fucks. I give so many fucks I’m always exhausted by noon. I’d like to say that will change but it’s unlikely. I’m an empath and I can NOT turn off the giant vacuum of a brain I have that constantly absorbs the body language, tone, facial expressions and words (I eavesdrop as a default. It’s very hard to turn it off) of everyone in the room. My brain then INISISTS on coming to conclusions using that input, including compulsive assessments of how everyone in the room is perceiving/feeling about me. It’s exhausting but impossible to turn off (while sober).

Thus, I am not a Bad Ass. By my definition.

To me, the greatest compliment when I am doing something scary or hard (like submitting to impact play in public), is to have my bravery acknowledged. In my interpretation Bad Asses aren’t scared often (something I so admire and am attracted to) but Brave Little Girls (like me) are scared of everything…. and because of their strength they push through. For someone to tell me I am Brave is for them to acknowledge and celebrate that I faced fear and won,

I am a Big, Brave Little.

Which compliment do you prefer?? I’d love to hear your thoughts/perspectives.

 

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Evermore

I spent a long time as an erotic ghostwriter, making other names rich and famous.

Now that I have a better grasp on things, and We have Our little one, its time for things to change, on a global level.

A few years ago I started working on the Evermore project; a collective of thoughts and wild ideas revolving around the erotic culture (its what I know best). After the birth of Our little princess it became more and more apparent that I needed to complete the project, to break it down into stages, each offering more of an experience than the last, for a final experience like no other.

With 3 main goals of food, shelter, and education, the Evermore project bloomed into something that truly has the ability to launch humanity into a new century long before its time (and not in a technological way).

Stage One is the launch of Erotix magazine (in both print and digital). Erotix is more than a magazine however, it’s an erotic experience that caters to men and women of all sexual lifestyles no matter what number describes a readers age.

While readers indulge in various forms of erotica, proceeds from stage one will go to fund proper sexual education programs. With the magazine being held as an in-house (Evermore) publication, more erotica is offered in each issue compared to other magazines of this calliper.

Stage Two will allow erotica lovers around the world to indulge in their every fantasy while helping to secure farms, ranches, and orchards. Food is a basic necessity to living and we intend to provide quality meals and ingredients for those in need.

Living on a budget can mean low cost foods that provide little to no nutritional substance. Food banks hand out donations of week old breads, expired meats, and molded produce on the premise that they are helping those who suffer from hunger. Everyone deserves meat that wont make them sick, fruits and veggies that arent covered in slime and bugs. Beggars may not be able to choose but they shouldt be forced to eat garbage either.

Stage Three, the final stage of the Evermore project is designed to bring erotica into the open, with a warm glowing light shined upon its crown. Sex-positive, educational, entertainment in a safe, shame free and private setting, an exclusive line of Evermore products including wine, cannabis, and aphrodisiac treats, and custom clothing, jewelry, and furniture for those wanting to share their erotic lifestyle and culture.

“The Black Gardens” or Stage Three will provide funding for personal mobile shelters for those in need while creating a plethora of jobs for many underfunded peoples of our community.

More details will be made available as this project of passion moves forward. To say that its not enough of an explanation would be an understatement compared to the notes, sketches, and models that are piled around me, stuck to my walls and ceiling. But let me make sure I at least touched on everything:
Publishing, Sex Ed., Film/Video Production, Video Game Production, Custom Furniture and Toy Production, Clothing line, Erotic Jewelry, Cafe/Restaurant, Theater, Hotel, Pet Park, Arcade, Shops, Winery, and Weed… Yeah, I think thats it.

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